had been talking too lil' princess in MSN the whole day .

we didn't meet up because her eye is swollen .

& nevertheless, she didn't meet the *Ahem* too .

hah .

didn't went out today, so most of the time i had been facing the laptop screen .

talking to lil princess , in a kinda .. maybe you can say : guailan way .

♥ , She's Named: PEIFAN™ says: i going back my father's house soooN~

♥ , She's Named: PEIFAN™ says: where you all going de mac ?

♥ , She's Named: PEIFAN™ says:CB MAC?

♥ , She's Named: PEIFAN™ says: haha no thanks (;

SIBEI GUAILAN! post later , i am going back to dad's house okay (;

see ya .

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i am back , it feels like a very very long journey .

my sis suddenly cried in the bus .

then i felt so blank , i wanna cry out too .

but , i'd never dare to express my feelings towards my family .

i cried when i watched touching movies with my friends ,

but i'd never cried in front of my family when i watched touching movies .

nevertheless , i don't think i ever had any intimate moments with my family .

thats horrible , terrible , vegetable .

so on the bus , i kept thinking ... is it so hard to be a oldest child?

what about the smaller one?

i don't know , sometimes i hope i wasn't born in this family .

divorced , separated , financial problems , arguments , debts .. so much things .

why can't i be more fortunate then everyone else ?

we reached our destination , i walked in the front while sis walked behind me .

i really couldn't figure out what she was thinking .

i didn't care much too , i was having a pain in the head and the same time i felt i was a pain in the neck to people .

blah blah , finally reached dad's house .

my head had been spinning round & round .

i dun think i can tolerate anymore );

i hoped i fell sick ,

high fever, please approach me !

i wanna lose my appetite for a reason .

(;

shall later .