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Thursday, July 30, 20091:20 AM

Anti-Comp.

Okay, seriously.. i haven't been like really updating my blog. but one of the reason i do not want to blog is because of blogger problem.

Okay, it seems pictureless for a month already, so:

basically, just trying to show everyone ma 15 ulcers. hehe

Trying to take my contacts while staying up for the whole night

Fuck you,

thats not a love bite hor!

LOL!

Sis

Small Bro

& my new love of my life :

Looks familiar, no? yes, he's bill from tokio hotel, but tom more handsome!

K whatever! enough of Idol craze. So anyway, Happy belated birthday to Ze Jiang & Shueting.

Arghhhhh, i don't know what else to post anymore.. oh welll.....

27 Jul 09, 07:14

Charlotttteeee: ohh darling... long time no tagggieeeee

hahahaha....i just ran away from home hahahahhah

Peifan: stop running away from home liao la!

27 Jul 09, 06:51

Rebecca!: I felt like a fool
Peifan: relax laaaaa, dont think so much le la! :)

22 Jul 09, 03:47

Mira.: Hahaa. Hello(:
Peifan: hello :)

19 Jul 09, 05:53

charlotteeeee: but @ least i can see you sial :) hahahahhahahha so happpieeeeee

19 Jul 09, 05:53

charlotteeeee: haha

yeah finally tomorroww mondayyyyyieeee :) woooo la la ! but got course workieeee ! sian to the maxieee !
Peifan: coursework fun what, i wonder why you all dont like .. haha

18 Jul 09, 04:47

Charlottttteee (:: blogggg lehhhhhh

Peifan: haha, blog already laaaaaaa

Posted by Peifan.

Saturday, July 25, 20091:51 PM

Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just dont belong
And no one understands you

Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming

No you dont know what its like
When nothing feels alright
You dont know what its like to be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When youre down
To feel like youve been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no ones there to save you
No you dont know what its like

Welcome to my life

Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more
Before your life is over?

Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With the big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside youre bleeding

No you dont know what its like
When nothing feels alright
You dont know what its like to be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When youre down
To feel like youve been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no ones there to save you
No you dont know what its like

Welcome to my life

No one ever lied straight to your face
And no one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think Im happy
But Im not gonna be okay!

Everybody always gave you what you wanted
You never had to work it was always there
You dont know what its like
What its like!

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When youre down
To feel like youve been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no ones there to save you
No you dont know what its like (what it's like)

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When youre down
To feel like youve been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no ones there to save you
No you dont know what its like

Welcome to my life

Welcome to my life

Welcome to my life

Might be changing to Livejournal soon, because blogger is really getting on my nerves.

I feel really depressed today, i just quarreled with my family and i really wonder if it is my fault...

I mean, almost everyday i went home, i will be facing walls and there's totally no one to talk to at all. All of them either working or went out. I am scared, lonely at home sometimes, but friends is the only ones i can turn to right?!

And my mom keeps insisting that i mixed with the wrong cliques, i seriously want to FUCK HER FACE UP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! IN THIS GENERATION, WHICH CHILD DON'T SPEAK VULGARITIES?! WHO DOESN'T START TO REBEL IN SECONDARY SCHOOL?!!??!??!?! WHY DO YOU HAVE TO IMPLICATE MY FRIENDS IN?!!!!!! EVEN IF I DO NOT KNOW THEM, I STILL SPEAK VULGARITIES AND REBEL IN SCHOOL!!!! I CAN STOP HANGING OUT WITH MY FRIENDS, BUT THAT WILL MAKE ME HATE YOU MORE. YOU'RE DRIVING ME INTO A CORNER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Sometimes, i wished that i have my own rented house, then i could call all my friends for party or some heart-to-heart talk or some stay overs or i could even run away from home and stay there!

Posted by Peifan.

Wednesday, July 22, 200911:55 PM

WTF is happening to blogger?!

It's very irritating to see my blog dashboard in a haywire mess.

Hasn't been feeling really good today, especially after playing block catching for the past day... my legs and arms are numbed and didn't really have the energy to move, so i have been like emo-ing the whole morning.

The weather is rather cooling today, i love it because it set a peaceful mind...

Anyway, HAPPY BIRTHDAY FLOWER :)

Posted by Peifan.

Saturday, July 18, 20091:15 AM

You make it hard to smile because....

you made it hard to breathed....

Went to meet Edward, Zhenxuan, San Jose & Gardner just now. Supposed to be studying but don't know who ask San Jose to bring basketball, so end up.. the guys went to play Basketball while i sat there and study alone.

Uh, nevermind :) i'm used to all their nonsenses. Anyway, coursework on Monday, chiongstudychiongstudychiong!~~~~~~

P/S: i hate some bitches.

16 Jul 09, 09:24

charlotteeeeeeeeee: haha, :) i cant wait to see you ?! so how are you??!?!???!
Peifan: haha, still feeling the same lor, no use one the medicine! lol

16 Jul 09, 01:55

zejiang:}: peifan , okayokay. i will han gout with you more! cheer up kkaes!! MISSSS!

Peifan: haha, okay! i am already cheered up. (: Wah, first time hear you say you miss me ! lmao! ;)

15 Jul 09, 02:02

Charlotteeee: arghhhhhh.... mondayyy ! what a dragggggg....
Peifan: haha, time passes by very quickly de la !!!! :)

14 Jul 09, 06:22

Menghui: Menghui will be back on school tmrw, i hope to see you,

I scared i go , you never go ! D:
Peifan: haha! Peifan will be back on school on MONDAY! :) must go hor, coursework leh!!!!!! :)

13 Jul 09, 07:32

Charlotteeeeee: ITS OKAY !

I LOVE YOU TO THE MAXXXXXXXX

i understands you

Peifan: haha, okay.. i am trying my best to approach the old me agaiN! yayness :)

13 Jul 09, 07:30

Menghui: sorry for leaving you in school again! Apologise!!
Peifan: Lmao! nevermind la :)

13 Jul 09, 04:52

V,: ME LOVE YOU LA! LOL <3>

Posted by Peifan.

Thursday, July 16, 200911:19 PM

Milk Bottle.

A sudden craving for milk, chocolate milk. I'd always love chocolate milk then normal plain white milk since young. My whole family is like that.

Haha, anyway.. i realised something quite funny when i was on the way home yesterday. I yearned to blog it out yesterday but somehow i forget about it.

I do not know how to elaborate detailedly, so i will roughly say it.

I realise that my family members does not fall sick easily, we dont eat vitamins, nutrition, medicine to keep us strong in health, but instead:

Dad - smokes, drink beers to keep him in good health although he always got sore in the throat.

Mum - need coffees, milo, tea to keep her strong in health.

Sis - she needs vegetables to stay 100%, can say she is half vegetarian.

Bro - DOTA, all he do is play DOTA all the time, play DOTA everyday keeps the doctor away -.-

Me - Everyone knows i'd got a sweet tooth, i need sweets to keep in health ^^

I did not say this anyhow but i always encounter this problems, whenever all the things we need is not around, we fall sick otherwise.

Sounds abit stupid, but REALLY WHAT! ^^

I might be going to school tomorrow, if i can wake up. I am already bored to death today. Nights!

Posted by Peifan.

Wednesday, July 15, 20098:19 PM

Mc Spicy Student Meal at KFC.

Lunched at KFC today with Fook Choy and gang, while i waited for my turn to consult a doctor.

Foochoy - KFC Crew: Can i have a Mc Spicy Student meal.

Crew: *stunned*

Rushed back to polyclinic after eating, waited for a long time & eventually i missed my turn and i didn't know about it.

I'd got a big swell in my throat & some runny nose for a few weeks already, and gotten 2 days MC from the doctor. So i will not be in school until next monday.

Home after that. Nothing much to post about today, so i think i am going to sleep soon.

goodnight.

Posted by Peifan.

Monday, July 13, 20097:13 PM

Grumpy mood.

I am sorry to everyone in class, especially Charlotte and Shueting. I am just not in the mood today after the bitch's lesson. I am so sorry, my apologies!

Sorry for shouting at you, my dearest Charlotte. I don't know what is going on, i just feel agitated all the times. Super duper sorry! I AM SO SORRY! :(

Shueting, teddy.. thanks for accompanying me in school when i am alone, love you very much.

And Rebecca, thanks for spending the day with me. Takecare of your eye okay, stead!

And Michelle, twin, thanks for being there to console me whenever i am unhappy.

And Jialing, leong.. why are you so moody this few days? are you okay? takecare of yourself.

And Menghui, Daughter.. i hope to see you in school soon, i miss you terribly much. You don't know how much i am suffering without you :( Faster go back to school.

And Zejiang, 7 years leh.. why can't you hang out with me more :( i am just joking, but i really miss hanging out with you :(

I am getting emotional now, i really feel like crying suddenly. WHAT IS HAPPENING TO ME!!?

Posted by Peifan.

4:52 AM

It makes me wanna die.

Okay, i skipped my sleep again. But this time, i am revising on CPA and doing homeworks.

Coursework starts on week 4! I wonder if i can pass this time round and not typing things like : "100kg..........." ☚ inside story.

Blah Blah Blah. Okay shit. Its 5 am now, and i have to go bath already. No more time for studies, die!

P/S: I miss San mum! Okay, might be considering going church with Caiying on Saturday.. sun bian go find San :)

P/S/S: Friday not free, dont ask me out! Going P.O.P at vian's friend's camp, woolas.

Study hard everyone! :) the more you fail, the closer you're getting to success!

Posted by Peifan.

Saturday, July 11, 20094:40 PM

You're just a piece of shit!

I'd just wished i had one to cuddle with any time i want.

Okay, honestly, i had spent hours on this post. I always get distracted from other things when i am posting, be it Facebook, blogs, games...........

I'd never concentrated or finish a post within 30 mins or so, unless i am just posting a few lines la.

Anyway, i had a tiff with mum yesterday just because of a Birdnest. So things started to happened and i began throwing my tantrums and totally breakdown just because of a stupid "expensive birdnest".

Expensive so what? expensive means you can force me to do whatever i do not like to do? what logic is this? Anyway, fyi. I had never been into tonics or expensive foods, etc. Birdnest, Abalone, chicken essences, ginseng.... blah blah blah. (Sharkfins & lobsters is an exception.)

All this foods or tonics make me puke. I really cannot imagine all the rich tai tai(s) drinking & eating these stuffs. Fuck!

Yesterday felt just like the whole world against-ing on me. That's just how life is going to be, i really have to get over all these kind of shit stuffs and go on. But, aiya, just buy me one of the dogs above on my birthday so that i can hug it whenever i am depressed. I will love you, i promise! *fat hope*!

So, school's been good. I am happy to stay in class all the times without moving from 1st floor to 4th floor and i can even passed assembly without being caught! Ow holy mother shit, i love H1N1. ♡♥❤❥☙❧ X10000000000000000

But one thing that has ever changed is my C.H.A.R.A.C.T.E.R. I really felt like as if i am having menopause out of a sudden. Perhaps mood swings. I got agitated so easily, and thats a very very bad thing. SORRY TO ALL THE PEOPLE OUT THERE.

P/S: Its gonna rain soon, i just hope you come home safely. I'm so sorry for what i did, i regretted it, :(

P/P/S: Buy me a pet please :(

P/P/P/S: well damien, obviously "farer" is in the dictionary, what. You just don't understand my use of language thats all. & i don't get what you mean. You mean living off your parents is a good thing?! You will still take money from your parents when you are old?! You don't feel least guilty at all la?! I don't want to debate with you, so just stop tagging me. Tyvm.

10 Jul 09, 23:58

Charlotteeeeeeeeeeeee: & ignore the damien okay !

Peifan: i swear this is the last time i am going to reply him ^^

10 Jul 09, 23:58

Charlotteeeeeeeeeeeee: haha, i think you should join the contest ! SURE WIN ! HAHAHAHAH

LOVE YOU LARH !
Peifan: haha, i join liao also wont win !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!~~~~ hahahaha love ya too

9 Jul 09, 07:36

Charlottteeeeeeeeeeee: heh heh heh

im finally seeeing you tmrrrr ! wakakakakakakakas
Peifan: haha, yeah :) miss me ah? haha

8 Jul 09, 08:02

SAMUEL ♥: miss me , jiu contact me lorhh .. my phone 24/7 on de .. lols ..
Peifan: haha, kns, your phone 24/7 on but you not 24/7 awake! haha

8 Jul 09, 07:47

Menghui: Update bodoh!
Peifan: update le :) BODOH!

8 Jul 09, 02:38

SAMUEL ♥: lols .. miss what ? & why ?
Peifan: miss you :)

7 Jul 09, 19:57

shane: tag wtf cannot go sch sianzor coughing running nose sore throat sianzor
Peifan: why you say sian lor must sianzor? lol! takecare, restwell :)

6 Jul 09, 06:49

Menghui: Hahah, paiseh lah, tmrw can see me liao mah, I know you miss me a lot! Really SORRY okeh! Meluvyou k!

Peifan: haha i miss the time how we talk in P**** :) haha *Ting Ting Ting*

6 Jul 09, 05:50

charlotteeeeee: woah i think worst then break up ! hahahahaha......
Peifan: haha, dont be crazy la. It meant to start a new life and turn into a young adult after that . haha

Posted by Peifan.

3:01 AM

These days aren't easy anymore..

Posted by Peifan.

Friday, July 10, 200912:17 AM

Eyebrow Contest.

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Go to www.dothecadburyeyebrow.com for more information!

Goodnight, everyone :)

Posted by Peifan.

Wednesday, July 8, 200910:15 PM

Sorry seems to be the hardest word.